Sunday, June 29, 2008


Road Trip
Peanut and I just got back this morning at 2 AM from a trip with Dobbie. We went to visit Daddy's sister's family for a couple of days. It was so good to see them and spend time with them. The very best part of the trip was seeing Peanut hit it off so well with her cousins. Daddy's sister who I will refer to as SIL for sister-in-law has 3 beautiful girls who are 9 years old, 8 years old (on Monday), and 2 and a half years going on 16. (All of our kids are gorgeous in this family. I remember when I was pregnant with Peanut thinking, "What am I going to do if I have the homely kid? Ha! No worries there now! HeeHee!) Peanut adores kids and to have these 3 girls all to herself was Heavenly!
Road Trip
SIL's family is getting ready to move into a rental house next door to their current home while their new house is being built. We spent time helping her clean the rental house and move some things over to it also. It was so hot and muggy so it was hard to keep working in the heat. This allowed for us to do some other things too. We visited SIL's new property where their house will be built, went out for pizza, and let the kids play together in the backyard. I can say my very favorite thing was to watch my own daughter connect with her cousins. It was great. We live almost 5 hours away so we don't see each as often as we all would like. So these times together are always cherished especially now that we have our own child. Family is so important!
Road Trip
The middle girl's birthday is on Monday so we decided to take her birthday shopping on Saturday before we left, but alas it was not meant to be. We ate at Subway quick and the oldest girl was not feeling very good at this point but we pressed on. Then on the way to shopping, SIL pulled over and said her vehicle was not running well. We headed back to her house and realized we wouldn't be going shopping because it was a serious problem and the oldest girl had a temperature. Dobbie and I felt so bad about the predicament that instead of heading home we went birthday shopping and dropped a big gift bag off for all the girls before heading back home. Heehee! They were surprised and excited.
Road Trip
Now as I said before, the trip should only take around 5 hours. We left SIL's at 6PM and got home at 2AM. We may have stopped to eat at Cracker Barrel, shop at Kohl's, get snacks at Speedway, make a coffee stop, and take a wrong turn....BUT hey, we made it home safe and sound with much giggling! We had a great time and Peanut did very well considering the hours spent in her carseat.

So now for pictures....
The girls!
This is the 9 year old cousin....She carried Peanut all over the place.
Road Trip

Here is our 8 year old cousin (officially 8 on Monday). She let Peanut and I sleep in her bed. So nice!
Road Trip

And here is the 2 1/2 year old going on 16 cousin. She is a wild woman. She informed her mama that her nickname is "Princess" and will only wear princess dresses more pants or shorts.
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Aren't they beautiful? They get it from their mama! (It's a mobile pic so it is small...sorry!)
Loving Aunt Leah!

Peanut is especially taken with the 2 1/2 year old. She learned many secret tricks of being a toddler from her. She has older sisters so she learned early! :) Here are some things they did together.
Jewelery for the royal highnesses....
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Pretend sleeping...this did not last long.
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The older girls were so good with Peanut too!
Road Trip

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They will be here to visit us along with our Southern cousins in a few weeks. We can NOT wait. Oh, the fun Peanut will have when ALL her cousins are here. I sure wish we all lived closer to each other!

Thank you Dobbie so much for taking us. We love our road trips with you. There is always something to laugh at. We love you!

And now to close....a few favorite pics of Peanut from this past week. Don't any of you DARE comment on how grown up she is starting to look because she is NOT!!!! You're just imagining it.
Cheeser Cheeser


Monday, June 23, 2008

June 24, 2008

Dear Little One,
Today was a day that was supposed to be filled with great joy and excitement. We would either be holding you in our arms or anxiously awaiting your arrival. Unfortunately it wasn't meant to be. You were not meant for us to hold in our arms, only in our hearts. Today quickly became a day that I began not looking forward to. The one final mark of your short existence. Today is the day that were you to be due but you have been gone now for just over 22 weeks and 4 days. I still find myself "feeling" you only to realize it can't be you. I guess these are what you would call phantom pains. June 1 the waves of grief came again. I thought I had moved on, but June was supposed to be full of last minute preparations and anticipation but now it is not. The tears have been flowing again from time to time. In a way, I am glad. I do not ever want to forget you. Remembering is hard though, because we will never hold you. We will never hear your first word. We will never see your smile. The list goes on and on. I have a beautiful box filled with the memory of you. It holds pajamas that a friend bought for you, a pair of horse slippers that someone else bought for you. It also holds the pregnancy journal that I had just started one week before we found out that we had lost you. There are also the many cards we received in the days following. The program from your burial service "In God's Hands" and the candle we were given is there also. On the days when I need to remember you, I will have that. I know where you are and that is my greatest sense of peace. You are being well cared for and loved beyond measure. I know that although my heart still aches for you. You will always have a piece of it. We love you.

Isaiah 43:1
"But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine."

If you have followed the Audrey Caroline story at all, you will remember the following song. It was written in honor of little Audrey's short life. It moved me to tears. The words are so precious to me.

I Will Carry You

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me
To carry you

Thursday, June 19, 2008


Dump Truck
I just put Peanut down for a much needed nap. With it being summer I have gotten a bit inconsistent with her sleep schedule which makes for some long, whiny nights by her and I. Ha! Her bedtime has become 9 pm for now. She still sleeps between 11-12 hours a night so I am grateful for that but without those afternoon naps or going to bed later than 9 pm it can make for a cranky child. I know that her crankiness is so mild but it really throws me when she is cranky. She is so even tempered. I am so thankful that we have a good sleeper.

Anyways...we had to make a Wal-Mart run to pick up things for homemade strawberry freezer jam and were running a bit late for the nap. I threw together a quick lunch for her. As she sat in her high chair I started conversing with her and the word honey came up. She started saying it over and over. So cute! She is saying new words almost daily.
Bounty of Strawberries
The strawberries came from Grandpa Danner's house. We helped him pick them from his strawberry patch on Wednesday and he sent the whole lot home with us! Yeah for Mama! I am making jam and freezing some. We love strawberries! We also helped Grandpa weed the garden. Thankfully it was a very mild and cool day so it wasn't too bad.

She is donning a small pony tail today too. Her hair is so long especially when it is wet and combed out. As it dries the back turns into the cutest little ringlets. I hope, hope, hope that she keeps those.
Peanut spent some time at our local park this week. One day we had a play date with our little friend who just turned 2 and another day she went down with Daddy so I could run to JoAnne's and get some fabric to make her a tote. (Refer to to see the tote.)

She also had fun with watercolor paints. Daddy thinks we should frame her first masterpiece.
Watercolors Watercolors
Peanut has started doing somersaults all by herself. She started on Monday and has been doing them all week! She is so proud of herself and of course we think it is the cutest thing in the world.

I told you in a previous post that Peanut likes shoes...well it has grown into an obsession now. She adores her shoes and is always sorting through her shoe basket for a pair to put on or putting on ours. Her favorites are her blue crocs because she can put them on all by herself. She even likes to wear the grandparents' shoes when we are at their houses. She put Dobbie's shoes on the other night and Papa informed me that was definitely something that needed to be documented on our camera as he was cracking up over it. Ha!
Dobbie's Shoes Dobbie's Shoes

And I think we finally are calling each grandparent by a separate title.
Daddy's Mom is Dobbie. Peanut just started calling her Bobbie yesterday! Dobbie was thrilled as were we!
Daddy's Dad is Papa. Peanut has had this one down for a while.
Mama's Mom was going to be Grandma but Peanut on her own started calling her Mimi.
Mama's Dad was going to be Grandpa but Peanut couldn't say that so we picked Gigi...which is what I called him for a long time when I was a little girl.
So we have Bobby and Papa and Gigi and Mimi.
Sand Box
Peanut also has started to say, "Tay," for okay after we ask her a question. She nods her head and says, "Tay!" It is sooooooo cute.
Lastly if you could remember my friend who is in basic training in prayer. I got to talk to her last night for the first time since she left for maybe 5 minutes. She sounded pretty miserable. The temperature is 118 degrees, her feet have blisters on them, and she developed cellulitis in one of her feet. Her group left this morning at 3 AM for a 10 day field training. She will be back on the base for 3 days then turn around and head back out to the field for 3 weeks! And to top it all off today is her birthday! I know she and her family would appreciate all the prayers they can get.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Happy Father's Day!

I just asked Peanut what she wanted to tell Daddy for her Father's Day blog and she said, " Pu, Trator...Wheeee!" So there you go, Daddy! :) We love you so much.
Here are some reminders of why we love you so much from the past year.
Indianapolis Zoo
Little Nashville
Stop and Smell the Flowers

Daddy's Kiss!

Going with Daddy
szxa (This is from Peanut!)
Piano Player

Daddy's Hand


Sitting High

Hocking Hills State Park

-Mama and Peanut
Birthday Night Out

Wednesday, June 11, 2008


Another fun and busy week. No potty training yet for those of you who were wondering. Ha! That's all I have to say about that.
Tuesday we had our good friends over for lunch. It was kind of a sad lunch because it was the last time that I will get to see my friend for over 6 weeks. She will be flying to Army basic training on Sunday morning. She and her family were actually leaving from our house to head to TN for her hubby's brother's wedding. There are many times when we do not see each other for weeks on end but I always know that she is just a half hour away. I didn't let myself think about the distance that will be between us in the next 6 weeks. We basked in our time together and with our families before we had to say good-bye. Peanut and I are praying for her and her family each night before bedtime! (We love you! I know that without a doubt the Lord will get you, hubby and the kids through this hard time. So go do your sit-ups, push-ups and run your heart out! :) I know she and her family would appreciate all of your prayers also. You can follow her blog here, but bear in mind she may not have much time to update it with her busy Army schedule.
Friends Friends Friends

So a few blogs back, I told you that my wonderful mother-in-law surprised me with a sewing machine. Yeah! I have lots of plans for it if I can just figure out what a bobbin is and how to turn it on. Haha! I have a great teacher so I am not worried. Peanut and I spent the day with Dobbie yesterday and I picked a pattern for a bag to make and picked the material out of her quilt shop stash. I got it cut out and the interfacing ironed on the pieces but THEN my precious daughter began to melt down and we decided to stop there. How do kids know to do that when Mommy is in the middle of a project? That is exactly why my great intentions of scrapbooking have not been fulfilled. Oh and because I don't think it's wise to add on to our house just so Mommy can have a scrapbooking room. Ha! Maybe I can turn our garden shed into my very own space??? Anyways....I am rambling. Back to sewing....we did take Peanut to our local Joanne's and loaded her into the cart along with some cool material that we happened upon. See below. She had fun chewing on the sewing notions package.
Fabric Shopping
You can check on my progress at my new blog at
Mama's Bag
After the meltdown, Dobbie gave Peanut a bubble bath which helped immensely with her sour attitude.

Today we went to our little friend's birthday party. She turned 2 on Wednesday! I can not believe it. I remember when she was born and I was still pregnant with Peanut. I went to visit and ask lots of questions about labor and delivery. I remember holding that tiny little baby, thinking, "I'm not sure I am ready for this." Ha! I am thankful for these friends and the fun playdates that we are able to have together. The party was alot of fun. Peanut got to play in the pool, eat cake, draw with sidewalk chalk, and see babies. What more could she ask for? She is now sawing logs in her crib. It is a gorgeous day, so I think we will play in our own little pool when she gets up and then have a great night of sleep!




(I LOOOOOOOVE that little body! Oh my word!)


Fun summer days!

I am so thankful that we have missed the horrible storms that our other midwest neighbors have been slammed with. We spent the afternoon in Dobbie's basement yesterday as another system moved through our area. I sincerely hope that things calm down. (Family in Nebraska, if you're reading this, I have been thinking about you alot and hoping you have not been hit with these awful storms!) Daddy's side of the family had some near misses in Ohio this past week too. Wow!

And to close, one silly picture of Peanut who has figured out how to crawl into her jumper on her own. Today she was a bit stuck though.

(I started this blog on Wednesday, June 11 and saved it, then finished on Saturday, June 14. Since I saved it on the 11th, that is what it put at the top for the date. Can't figure out how to change that. Didn't want you to be confused. Ha!)