Monday, April 28, 2008


We are still waiting on our computer, so I am borrowing Dobbie's again.  (Thanks Dobbie!)  I just checked in on the Smith family at  Angie has posted a beautiful video that was made for Audrey's memorial service.  The song that is playing was written especially for them.  Don't forget to keep this special family in your prayers as they face the days ahead.  

Monday, April 21, 2008


Just wanted to let you all know that our computer is DOWN!  So, we won't be able to post for a while.  I am currently using Dobbie's computer.  Not sure how long we'll be without it.  Hopefully not too long.  

I also wanted to expand upon my last post about The Kite Runner.  If you have not seen this movie yet, you need to.  It was SO good.  It is one of the best movies that I have seen in a long time about friendship and forgiveness.  I can not stop thinking about it.

Friday, April 18, 2008


Daddy is on his way home from work for what is becoming a Mama and Daddy habit. He picks up a movie and ice cream on his way home from work on Fridays, then we hang out and spend some time together before the long weekend while he is at work. We aren't ones to go out alot, so this has become our splurge. I think we are going to watch The Kite Runner. I have heard it is supposed to be really good. We'll see.

Peanut and I spent the evening with Dobbie tonight. She was thrilled to play on Dobbie's awesome back porch. It was such a beautiful evening and she found shear enjoyment in watching the geese on the pond, watching the fish, and seeing spiders (Charlotte spiders!). My thinking is that if she watches Charlotte's Web all the time, then she won't be scared of spiders. She'll think every spider wants to be her friend. Ha! We also watched Babe at Dobbie's. Peanut thought this was a great movie because it had real animals! She is fascinated by animals. Dobbie thinks she will be a farmer's wife when she grows up.

Here are some pictures of Peanut and Dobbie having a pretend tea on the back porch.
Having Tea and Scones Having Tea and Scones
All this being outside has made for wonderfully restful nights and naps! (Peanut was doing much better with her sleep schedule before the warm weather came, but it sure has helped!)

I have another peanutty story to share. On Wednesday on our way home from Grandpa's, the sun was shining in Peanut's eyes in the car. She started playing Peek-a-Boo with the sun! It was so funny. She would cover her eyes, then uncover them and giggle just like she does when she does it with us!

Vrroomm, Vrroomm!

Peanut is growing up. I took her to her first storytime at the library on Tuesday. It was so much fun. I have to apologize for my less than perfect pictures. Can you believe I was the only one taking pictures? I felt kind of silly pulling my camera out but I did. The pictures I took are not that great because I was trying to hold the camera and remind Peanut that we need to share and not look like an idiot with the camera. The storytime lady read Growing Vegetable Soup by Lois Ehlert (a favorite of this preschool teacher's) and then they gave all the kids all sorts of plastic vegetables. Each child got a turn to put his or her veggies in a great big pot, then we pretended to add water, then everyone got a turn stirring the soup. It was great fun! We have 4 more weeks of storytime! I will try to take better pictures next time.



On Wednesday we went to Grandma and Grandpa's as we always do. Grandma continues to hang in there but is continually showing signs of greater weakness. I had no idea how weak one person could actually get. Peanut loves to pat her arm and give her kisses. For that I am so grateful.

After we had our coffee and cookie break, Peanut was off playing. She went in the front room and started opening and closing the door. Grandpa said I had better go and help her because she would probably get upset about the door being closed. To this I thought, "Come on Dad, my daughter can open the door!" But I helped her and in the process discovered a HUGE box sitting in the front room. Grandpa was sitting in his chair beaming about our discovery. He had got Peanut a pink Barbie Jeep!!!! I was shocked and thought, "Boy, does she have you whipped." Ha! We spent the morning putting the Jeep together. Peanut helped with screwdrivers and such. Finally we got it together only to discover that the battery HAD to charge at least 18 hours before it's first use! Bummer! Peanut didn't know the difference and had a blast getting in and our of her Jeep all day. It even has a working FM radio! Oh my goodness. After all the excitement I got to thinking, I never got a Barbie Jeep when I was little. Hmmm? :)

Jeep Owner Jeep Owner
Now some Peanutty stories to share with you.

Yesterday was quite a day for Peanut. She helped me work in the backyard after I got home from work. She helped put yucky leaves and weeds in the trash can and she decided putting rocks in her mouth was fun. I kept reminding her not to do that. She had put one precious stone on the patio table for safe keeping. We were taking a break from our work and she ran to the table, grabbed the stone, and flung her hand to her mouth. I chased her down to find that the stone was nowhere, not in her hand, not in her mouth, not on the deck. I freaked out, sure she had swallowed it. I called Dobbie and she assured me that she wouldn't be able to swallow something that big (it was a bigger rock, not small) and that she had probably tossed it when I was fishing in her mouth. There is a little part of me that is still unsure as to where that rock is. I will be checking diapers for the next few days.

THEN we came in to clean up, eat supper, and change our clothes. I put a cute little knit dress on Peanut and ran downstairs to grab some laundry to put away. I had told her to stay with Daddy upstairs and not to follow. Well she did, and she got tangled in her dress and tumbled down the stairs. Thankfully, she didn't fall very far and was fine. Oh yes, and this was after she had decided to dunk a sock in the potty. Is she 2 yet? NOOOO! Haha!

I took her with me to my monthly craft night so Daddy could sleep some extra with no disruptions (since he had worked 3rd shift the night before, watched Peanut while I was at work and was sick). We made the cutest little paper purse bags. I had to share a picture of it with you.
Isn't it sweet? And it was so easy to make. Thanks friend for all the work you put into our craft nights. I always look forward to it and to seeing you. Aren't those hyacinths pretty? They are in full bloom in our backyard and smell delightful. I can't wait for the daisies to bloom!

AND we had an earthquake! This morning at 5:35ish I woke up to our bed shaking and our house rattling. Now this isn't that strange since we live next to a railroad track, but the train never wakes us up and there was no train whistle. It also felt different. I laid there and thought, "Is it an earthquake? No, it couldn't be. It has to be the train." But after it was over I poked Daddy and said, "I think we just had an earthquake." He had felt it too, but wasn't sure. Dobbie confirmed it this morning with a text message. Sure enough the midwest was hit with a 5.2 earthquake. I have never felt one before. It was an odd feeling to know the earth had moved below us.

And lastly, a little girl in my preschool class said something pretty cute this week. We made rainbows to use in one of our songs for our April chapel. I showed the students how to make the rainbow POP out to which she said, "Look at my rainbow POOP!"

So there you have it. I'm sorry if my thoughts are not coherent, but once again my content little girl who was playing so nicely is climbing all over me and fussing because I am on the computer. Why does she do this?


Monday, April 14, 2008

Drama Queen?

We think we might have a bit of a drama queen complex coming out in Peanut. On Saturday my friend from college visited with her little boy. Peanut loves to give hugs. She stretches her arms out and makes this cute little sound. It is her signal that she wants to hug whatever is at the end of her outstretched arms whether it be a person, a child, a baby, a dog, a cat, a doll, a stuffed animal or whatever. She desperately wanted to hug friend's son. Being a boy, he just was not into the whole hug scene, so he said, "NO!" Peanut THREW herself on the floor and sobbed. She did this TWICE! Now, being a good mama I hugged her and said it would be ok but inside I was trying not to laugh at the drama that had just been displayed before me. Besides this probably won't be the first time she will cry about a boy. (Friend, you can record that in your son's baby book...the first time he broke a girl's heart. Also you can record that I was the first to put these pictures up!!!)

Here Peanut is trying for that hug...
Just a Little One?

Check out that determined look on her face.
Just a Little One?

So, no hug? Maybe a little kiss?

Just a Little One?

Then on Monday evening, Peanut helped me make supper standing on her chair beside me. I had put her back on the floor because I was busy at the stove and being a good mama, I don't let her help at the stove. She desperately wanted back up on the chair so Daddy helped her and in the process she stepped over the side and fell. He tried to catch her but didn't make it. She of course was very upset and wanted Mama. I rocked her and got her all quieted down, then Daddy came to check on her and she would have nothing to do with him. He tried to kiss her and she pushed him away and started crying. He even tried to pick her up and she wanted nothing to do with that. Now I know he was heartbroken, but I was again trying not to laugh because I could see that she was really dramatizing this. Daddy headed back to the kitchen and I had a "talk" with her about how it's not nice to treat Daddy like that and that he would never hurt her intentionally. After a bit, we walked to the kitchen hand in hand and she went right to Daddy.

So, we think she is displaying some queenly tendencies. Wow! And only 21 months old.

Here are two more pics of her with her friend. Do you have any idea how hard it was to get these two to look at the camera? Obviously you can tell because neither pic has them both looking up, so how about one of each looking up while the other is engrossed with the object in their hands.
"Boy" Friend

"Boy" Friend

In God's Arms

On Sunday Daddy and I attended the service for our baby. We were surprised by the number of people in attendance on this cold and dreary day. There were at least 50 others there including hospital chaplains, nurses, funeral home representatives, and many family and friends of the babies that had been lost. We were each given a white carnation to lay on a headstone that said 2008 to memorialize the spot where the babies had been laid to rest. It was obvious that the babies had been buried earlier as the ground was freshly disturbed. The service consisted of prayers, scripture reading from Psalm 139 and responsive readings. They also called the names of the babies that were being honored that day. Since we did not find out before the service whether our baby was a boy or girl, our baby was called Baby F for the service. We were also given a small candle to keep as a memory from the day. The service was done very well and was very respectful of the families. I handled it better than I thought I would, but it was still hard especially laying the flower on the gravesite. The good days are much more frequent, but then something happens and I am taken right back to the hurt and ache like it happened yesterday.

The following is a video of the husband and wife duo Watermark singing a song they titled Glory Baby. It was written after they went through a miscarriage. It has come to mean alot to me over the past couple of months.

I also wanted to express my deepest sympathies to the Smith family as they said good-bye to their precious Audrey Caroline this past week. They were given just over 2 hours with their beautiful daughter before she took her last breath and became healed in the presence of God. If you have not yet read their story, I urge you to do so. Angie posted a beautiful letter to her daughter on Friday. Here is a family in the midst of heartbreak, but their faith and trust in Jesus is stronger than ever. Their testimony and Audrey's story are reaching hearts and places they could never have imagined. Their blog is at

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Staying Busy

We're always busy, so what's new? Daddy has been busy working some overtime and recording. I've been busy with preschool and Peanut. I'll give you a photo history of our past few days.

Peanut has learned how to dunk cookies in coffee. Oh so yummy, and so very messy!
Coffee and Cookies

She got to go to the mall with Dobbie and Mama and ride on her first merry-go-round! She loved it. The other little girl on the ride loved it too
because some other Mommy was funding her second ride.
First Merry Go Round

On the way home from the mall, Peanut was not too thrilled about being in her car seat, so I let her talk to Daddy on the phone. You can see the utter look of disgust about being in her seat on her face. If only we knew what she was telling Daddy.

Phone Conversation Phone Conversation

Peanut also spent some time in the woods at my parent's house with Grandpa and I. She was enthralled by the chorus of frogs that were singing to her in a mud hole. There must have been quite a few because it was very loud. She also spotted some hawks in the sky and was taken with them. She loves to watch birds right now. She always has to go for a ride on the lawn tractor and motor scooter while at Grandpa's too. She expects it now. Ha!

Listening to the Frogs

We had Dobbie and Papa over on Monday night for the big basketball game. Dobbie taught Peanut how to make a frowning face. The only problem with her frown is that it made us all laugh hysterically which egged her on more.

That is just a small glimpse of what we have been up to.

Daddy will be recording another band this weekend. Peanut and I will be spending time with a friend from college and her little boy. We also have an open house at the preschool on Sunday so I will spend some more time at work making sure things are ready for that.

Also on Sunday we will be attending the In God's Arms service for our baby. Knowing that is coming has brought the loss up again so it has been on my mind quite a bit lately. I am looking forward to the service as I know it will give us some added closure. Unfortunately the weather is not looking very promising for the outdoor service. It is supposed to be raining/snowing and in the low 40's. Not such great weather for being outside.

So that is it in a nutshell.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Continue to Pray

Please continue to pray for the family from They will be taking Audrey by c-section on Monday at 4pm. Please pray for this family as they go down this very difficult road. Pray that the time they have with Audrey is more than they could have imagined and that it will fill their hearts with many sweet memories for the days, months and years that lie ahead. My heart aches for them. Isn't it amazing how we can hurt for those we don't even know? I can't imagine the ache in their own hearts this weekend as they prepare for Monday. Please pray that the Lord will be so near to them right now.

And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard their hearts and their minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7