Friday, January 18, 2008

Loss

Yesterday we learned that we have lost our baby. After some spotting and cramping late on Wednesday night, I was advised to come in to see the doctor on Thursday. After not being able to find the baby's heartbeat, I was sent to our local hospital for an ultrasound and blood test. Later in the day the doctor called to let us know that in fact the baby did not make it. I was at 17 weeks and 2 days, but he said it looked like the baby had died at 15 weeks. It has been really hard to comprehend and understand. After passing that 12 week safe mark, I figured we were fine. Things were going so well and easily. I know it will get easier in time but right now in the midst, it's hard. I am so thankful for caring friends and family who are supporting us through this loss. I am also so very thankful for little Peanut. She has brought smiles to our faces through tears and heartache. She is a joy all the time, but even more now than ever. Thank you for your prayers during this time.
-Mama

13 comments:

Julie said...

Oh, Mindy...I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot comprehend losing a baby so far along, but know that our prayers are with you and your family. My heart grieves for you. I pray God will send you lots of love and comfort through this time. I'm here if you need anything--don't hesitate to ask. We love you.

Brenda said...

Dear Mindy,
My heart and prayers are going out to you, Kevin and Peanut too. In His Love, brenda

the back door said...

i feel your pain and have cried with you. i know it all too well and it is still so fresh. please know you can call or stop by anytime....you or kevin. we have been there and love you both!! we are praying for you.

Anonymous said...

Our hearts ache for you, Kevin, and Cora! We are so sorry. I am sorry we haven't called yet. I will try tomorrow. Know that we are praying for you and that we send you lots of love!
Lori, Steve and kids

Anonymous said...

mindy...words can't express how sorry I am. i too have been there and understand your pain. it hurts so much and there are no clear answers, but trust that God knows your pain and is there for you. let Him wrap His arms around you. praying for you and kevin...love, tricia

Dani said...

Oh Mindy. I type this through tears... I am so very sorry for your family. I cannot imagine your pain and grief, and I will keep you in my prayers. Sometimes God can be so confusing, but I know he loves us and is always there to listen. Keep trusting in him. As before, you continue to be a shining example of a faithful and godly family. May God bless you all.

Joy said...

My dear sweet Mindums,
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit."
Psalm 34:18
I love you.

Watered Spring said...

Mindy, I am Amy (Julie's sister in law). I was so sorry to hear of your loss. Please know that we will be praying for you and your family here at our home. We pray you will experience our Great God's grace and love during your loss.
Amy Petz

Anonymous said...

Hi, I'm a friend of Joy's and Danielle's, and found your blog after Joy requested prayers for you. I am truly sorry for your loss and know personally how hard it is to lose a baby. It sure doesn't make any sense why things happen. God doesn't will everything that happens, but in everything that happens, He wills something. I know from my own loss, He allowed opportunities for ministry to others. It was astounding to me how many others had experienced similar losses. Please allow yourself to be wrapped up in His loving arms and know that those who love you are keeping your family lifted in prayer! It makes Heaven sweeter knowing our babies are there waiting for us...
In His love,
Holly

Colleen said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers. I pray God will bring you comfort and give you strength during this difficult time.

Owl mama said...

Praying for you both... Even in the blackest night, He is there. "He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3)"

mkn2510 said...

Mindy,

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart mourns with you right now. We were 15 weeks when we lost our baby. I know nothing I can say can make the situation better but I will be praying that more than ever, you will feel our Father's arms around you. He loves you and we love you too!

Krista

Kristin said...

Mindy,

I am just now reading your blog. I am so sorry for your loss! We lost our 2nd in December, but I was only 7.5 weeks along. I hope you are doing alright now. (((hugs)))